Saturday, July 03, 2010 ♥
♥ 4:51 PM
Everything is back.
I din except that , that normal and short telephone call destroy it all .
That telephone call just destroyed what had been gathered for the 2 year plus or even 3 years .
Well , everything is the start of it now .
I know very well that i will not make it to my Olvls well .
But i will try to get the least points i could .
I know thinking is useless .
Thinking , and yet cant do anything .
There's no difference .
I know i should stop thinking .
All these periods had done alot harm to me , had destroyed me alot .
I know it's gonna start again .
Or rather it had started .
Fuck this life , fuck all these shit-tos .
Yesterday is history , Tomorrow is mystery , Today is some shitty .
Maybe it's better off this way .
Maybe someday , somehow i will b even more happier than what i am now .
I just have to get used to it .
I have the phobia now.
I dont know if i will have the courage or brave enough to get myself into such a danger next time.
Thinking of all those feelings, i wouldnt want it to be .
I wouldn't want to get into it.
I may give up of the word L .
Its been the forth time.
It-is-enough.